About Me:
Please believe me when I say that I haven't always had Baby Fever! I was a very reasonable young woman (No, seriously!). Having had a pretty rough childhood, and being responsible for the care of my younger brother I had spent the better part of my life feeling like I had already done my time "in the trenches," as they say. It wasn't until I met the man who is now my Husband that my feelings about having children were solidified. Prior to meeting my husband I was in a relationship with Mr. Wrong. We were compatible in a lot of ways, but there was one big thorn in our relationship. I wanted very badly to be married. At the time, I thought I loved Mr. Wrong enough to be married to him. Heck, after 3 years together you'd think the option would at least be up for discussion. WRONG! I will never forget the time I asked him point blank "Would you marry me?" and he replied to me and said "That's not even an option." That's the moment my heart checked out of the relationship with Mr. Wrong. I was still in my early twenties at the time. So I guess I still had time to find Mr. Right. The sadness I felt over being rejected in that way though made me start to analyze where I saw my life going. This is when I started considering my desire to have children. After I met my Mr. Right I knew, in my heart, that I could definitely see children in my life if I had a relationship with the right guy. During my teens if someone asked me if I wanted children I would've responded "No, never." Oh, how things change! My husband and I dated for nearly three years before getting engaged. Throughout this time I had the splendid opportunity not only develop a loving and solid relationship with him, but also his son from a previous relationship. My husband and I have been together since my Stepson was 2 years old, and while I may not be his biological mother I am the woman who is in his life 24 hours a day 6 days a week. So a certain amount of "mothering" just happens. Seeing him grow into the young man he is today has truly opened my heart and confirmed for me that I most definitely want to grow our family, give him a brother or sister, and also have the opportunity to pass on my family’s culture and traditions to my child as well. Fast forward to a chilly November day in 2013, and I took my last hormonal birth control pill. That day marked the first day of the hardest and most heartbreaking journey of my life - the Journey of Trying to Conceive my first child. This blog, although started nearly 19 months after that chilly November day, will be my ongoing story of trying, failing, and hopefully one day bringing home my Rainbow baby. |
WHAT DO THOSE ACRONYMS MEAN?
I will probably use quite a bit of shorthand in my blog posts. For those of you visiting from the TTC Community you'll have no problem understanding. For those of you who are new to trying to conceive or the community I hope you find these helpful! I will try to keep this as updated as possible, but if you see an acronym in a blog post which isn't explained for you hear please leave me a comment, and I will be happy to update it! TTC: Trying to Conceive TWW: Two Week Wait AF: Aunt Flo (Period! BOO!) HPT: Home Pregnancy Test BFP: Big Fat Positive (Pregnancy Test) BFN: Big Fat Negative (Pregnancy Test) OPK: Ovulation Predictor Kit CD: Cycle Day DPO: Days Past Ovulation DH: Darling Husband SS: Stepson FS: Fertility Specialist (Doctor) EDD: Expected Due Date |