Well, this concludes another chapter in our TTC Journey. Our first medicated cycle was a fail. In all honesty, I feel more calm and at peace today than I did in the days leading up to this. I think I feel better just not being in limbo anymore, and also getting the opportunity to try again. I can also look back at this cycle and start being thankful that I actually ovulated after all – despite a lot of issues. I am thankful know that this medication seems to be the push my ovaries need to do their business.
There is definitely a part of me that is mourning over the failed cycle. I had held onto a naïve hope that our first medicated cycle would somehow magically make all of our fertility issues go away and we would get pregnant on the first try! Believe me when I say I clung to every tiny shred of hope there was in the last week, and held on with all my might. I consulted Dr. Google with all my questions regarding conception rates with poor intercourse timing, and late ovulation.
Now that this chapter is closed, and I am looking forward to a new cycle and a new chance I will be doing another round of Clomid on CD3-7. I am going to go with the increased dose that my OB/GYN provided (100mg) instead of doing the 50mg again. Although I did ovulate last cycle I can’t be sure that it was actually due to the 50mg dose of Clomid or if it was just because I hadn’t ovulated since November of last year and my body was ready to spit an egg out. My hope is that I will ovulate much (MUCH) sooner with the 100mg dose.
In addition to this I am going to be much more diligent about managing my stress. It will be hard since I have four large conferences to handle for work – one of which is out of town and I’ll have to spend a night away from my husband! – But I know it will be worth it to force myself to slow down and relax.
Also I will be using Castor Oil packs sparingly in the days before O. I have read so many articles and studies on their benefits for reproductive health, and I did 2 Castor Oil packs last cycle right around the time I ovulated. So, it could be a coincidence but it could also mean that it is incredibly helpful! So, I will be doing that as well.
If you are the praying type – I would appreciate any prayers you can spare for us and our journey. I’ve leaned on my faith a lot in the last two months and I am hoping to find peace and positivity through continuing to recognize the beauty of the world around me, and trust in my body and it’s capabilities.
There is definitely a part of me that is mourning over the failed cycle. I had held onto a naïve hope that our first medicated cycle would somehow magically make all of our fertility issues go away and we would get pregnant on the first try! Believe me when I say I clung to every tiny shred of hope there was in the last week, and held on with all my might. I consulted Dr. Google with all my questions regarding conception rates with poor intercourse timing, and late ovulation.
Now that this chapter is closed, and I am looking forward to a new cycle and a new chance I will be doing another round of Clomid on CD3-7. I am going to go with the increased dose that my OB/GYN provided (100mg) instead of doing the 50mg again. Although I did ovulate last cycle I can’t be sure that it was actually due to the 50mg dose of Clomid or if it was just because I hadn’t ovulated since November of last year and my body was ready to spit an egg out. My hope is that I will ovulate much (MUCH) sooner with the 100mg dose.
In addition to this I am going to be much more diligent about managing my stress. It will be hard since I have four large conferences to handle for work – one of which is out of town and I’ll have to spend a night away from my husband! – But I know it will be worth it to force myself to slow down and relax.
Also I will be using Castor Oil packs sparingly in the days before O. I have read so many articles and studies on their benefits for reproductive health, and I did 2 Castor Oil packs last cycle right around the time I ovulated. So, it could be a coincidence but it could also mean that it is incredibly helpful! So, I will be doing that as well.
If you are the praying type – I would appreciate any prayers you can spare for us and our journey. I’ve leaned on my faith a lot in the last two months and I am hoping to find peace and positivity through continuing to recognize the beauty of the world around me, and trust in my body and it’s capabilities.