Wow, that’s a loaded question. Simply, I’ve been here – kind of.
Being a mother takes a toll on you. Being a wife takes a toll. Working full time takes a toll. Being a homeowner, adult, human being… all these things weigh on you. When you put all these things together it sometimes feels like your days get sucked into a vacuum and you wake up each day telling yourself to simply survive the next 12 hours until you can crawl back into bed, and hide under the covers before you have to do it all over again.
L is 19 months old as of yesterday. E recently celebrated his 9th birthday. I’m further into my 30’s than I like to think about, and my husband’s business is booming and he’s busier than ever before. We are all busier than ever before. So, if I have any blog readers out there in internet land please accept my apologies. I’m flaky. I’ll never be that perfect mom-blogger with regularly scheduled posts on Tuesdays and Saturdays and an Instagram account full of crisp and well lit pictures with smiling children and a clean house. That’s not me. My kids are smiling and my house is clean, but we aren’t sitting around the house snapping selfies while the lighting is perfect. We have allergist and chiropractor appointments for L, Baseball and Soccer games for E, Dinner as a family nightly, school conferences, birthday parties to attend, and autumn activities to enjoy. So, let me reiterate – we are busy. So, so busy!
I am not abandoning you, my dear blog. I’ve poured my heart and soul out here on my quest to become a mother, and now that I officially wear that badge I need this space to continue to pour my soul out. My soul just feels lost right now. I am going through that Mom crisis of “WHO AM I, EXACTLY?”
I love my kids more than life itself, and I always put them first. Sometimes, though, that can really mess you up when you sit back and think … but what about me? Who am I? What do I like?
So, I’ve taken up a “hobby.” < Cue that excited music > A friend and co-worker got me into Planning! Specifically within the Happy Planner. Full of bright beautiful colors and inspirational quotes I am having fun essentially scrapbooking some organization into my life. It’s therapeutic in a way. I am hoping to share some of the fun here, while also adding a little more content around the struggles we’ve had with Mr. L and his health.
Stay tuned my darlings. I am here, I have not forgotten about you. I’m just in survival mode at the moment!
Being a mother takes a toll on you. Being a wife takes a toll. Working full time takes a toll. Being a homeowner, adult, human being… all these things weigh on you. When you put all these things together it sometimes feels like your days get sucked into a vacuum and you wake up each day telling yourself to simply survive the next 12 hours until you can crawl back into bed, and hide under the covers before you have to do it all over again.
L is 19 months old as of yesterday. E recently celebrated his 9th birthday. I’m further into my 30’s than I like to think about, and my husband’s business is booming and he’s busier than ever before. We are all busier than ever before. So, if I have any blog readers out there in internet land please accept my apologies. I’m flaky. I’ll never be that perfect mom-blogger with regularly scheduled posts on Tuesdays and Saturdays and an Instagram account full of crisp and well lit pictures with smiling children and a clean house. That’s not me. My kids are smiling and my house is clean, but we aren’t sitting around the house snapping selfies while the lighting is perfect. We have allergist and chiropractor appointments for L, Baseball and Soccer games for E, Dinner as a family nightly, school conferences, birthday parties to attend, and autumn activities to enjoy. So, let me reiterate – we are busy. So, so busy!
I am not abandoning you, my dear blog. I’ve poured my heart and soul out here on my quest to become a mother, and now that I officially wear that badge I need this space to continue to pour my soul out. My soul just feels lost right now. I am going through that Mom crisis of “WHO AM I, EXACTLY?”
I love my kids more than life itself, and I always put them first. Sometimes, though, that can really mess you up when you sit back and think … but what about me? Who am I? What do I like?
So, I’ve taken up a “hobby.” < Cue that excited music > A friend and co-worker got me into Planning! Specifically within the Happy Planner. Full of bright beautiful colors and inspirational quotes I am having fun essentially scrapbooking some organization into my life. It’s therapeutic in a way. I am hoping to share some of the fun here, while also adding a little more content around the struggles we’ve had with Mr. L and his health.
Stay tuned my darlings. I am here, I have not forgotten about you. I’m just in survival mode at the moment!